update on my wonderful life. i knew you all missed my happy posts.

My finals for the semester start in two weeks, so I think it's the best time to pick up blogging again. Although I'm not sure where I'm going with all this.
My life's currently a big déjà-vu. This all could be November 2010. It's all starting over again, but I experience it in a not so bad way. I know what's going to happen. I'm aware of everything. So I'm just sitting there with a cup of tea while watching Friends waiting for the drama to raise.
You probably think that since I know what's going on I'm working against it. Well, I don't.
That's the thing about me. I know what's wrong about my life. I know what I should do. I know what I have to do to pass my exams. I know all these things.
Every time I go to see my therapist we go through different topics and then she explains me what's wrong. And I'm always like "I know that. I already know that for months."
But when it comes to why I'm not doing anything, I have no idea. I just wait and see how my whole life gets crappier again.
There is a very simple solution for my current big problem, which are the upcoming exams. I'd just have to sit down and study all that stupid stuff.
Dead simple.
But I'm not doing anything. I don't even panic when I think about my exams. They are in two weeks and I haven't even started studying yet. I don't give a damn.
I don't give a damn about a lot of thing lately. I don't even spend that much time on the internet anymore. There were so many days where I just turned on the computer to watch Friends. Friends is over now, btw. I finished Season 10 today. I spend pretty much the whole year watching Friends. Yes, it took me that long to watch 10 Seasons. So noone tell me that I watch too much TV or something.
Anyway. What I'm going to do now? Probably wait and see.
I either suddenly start to study or I won't and then I won't pass any exams, which means I can't study Art History any longer and I'm back to not knowing what to do with my life. And it all starts over again.
Goodnight.