back to my normal.

It's around 9:30 PM. I'm sweating. It's still terrible hot. I have a head ache. And I currently hate my life.

But let's talk about what's new:

• I spent yesterday and today in Upper Austria and Salzburg. With my parents. It was hot. I felt tired all the time, because I'm not made for heat. There were tons of tourists in Salzburg. Photos coming soon (or never).
• Before I left for Salzburg I enrolled as an art history student at university. My reaction: "Okay." Lena's reaction: "Okay." 
• I just looked up how many classes I have to take this semester. I only have to take three classes, means I only have university on Mondays and Fridays.
• This literally calls for a job...or a psychotherapy.
• Since I'm not able to get a job without a psychotherapy I'll probably start one. But since I don't have the courage to start a psychotherapy I'll continue my shitty life. 
• I feel like Courtney Love wrote some of her song about me or for me. 
• I somehow stopped answering emails, even though I want to answer them. If you're out there and are waiting for an email and you feel like I've forgotten you. I'm sorry, I don't forget anyone. I feel terrible for what I'm doing to my friends. I told Lena (the only one I'm always talking to) to motivate me. Her answer: "You know my answer". (The answer is psychotherapy)
• I'm obviously destoying my "social life". 
• There are two things Lena tells me a lot. 1. that I'm weird. 2. that I should go and get help.
• I don't think I have to tell you more, I think you get the point.