what is this about? i don't see the point.

Sometimes when I'm sitting in my room in front of my laptop (which is basically 90% of the time I'm awake) I'm thinking about the internet and if it's really worth it to have a blog, a Tumblr and Twitter account. Sometimes I think it would be better to just be around and don't interact. That's what I did when I was on my "break" earlier this month.
I spent less time on the internet, but still, I was around A LOT. I was there. Everywhere. I just didn't interact.
Except Tumblr. I wasn't there, because if you just look without doing something on Tumblr, it's the most boring thing ever.
And except Twitter. Because I always wanted to know what's going on in my friends' lifes.
It was such a good feeling to enjoy everything without doing anything. You know, this feeling when you watch other people work while you're relaxing in the sun.
It's good to not "work" for a while on the internet. But I came back, because I love writing blog posts and spending literally my whole day on Tumblr reblogging stuff. I love it.
But now, after two weeks back in action I wonder what's going on here. Blogger became such a boring place to me. I still love blogging. I just don't see why I'm doing it. I blog almost daily. I always know something to write about and sometimes I can't wait to get it out there. It's the same every time. I'm excited to write something. I post it. I tweet about it. Then I do other stuff. Checking my emails now and then to see if someone left a comment. Which hardly ever happens the first few hours. And then I forgot that I posted a post. And then the next day there are probably 1-3 comments. Comments from people who leave comments on pretty much every single post. To be honest, it disappoints me from time to time.
People always say, that blogging is not about having followers and I absolutely agree with that.
But, what's Blogger for, if you don't get any response except from a few people. I love to read your comments, don't get me wrong. It's just amazingly boring. I could also write those people emails or talk to them on Twitter. I don't need Blogger for that.
You've probably noticed that I don't really reply to your comments anymore. Why? I got bored saying "Thanks", because most of the comments I get are short and there's nothing more to respond than "Thanks".
To quote Hope "It feels a little like talking to a brick or something". Exactly. That's how I feel.
Sometimes I have ideas to write a post about a topic that's important to me or I'd like to discuss and then I never write it, because people just don't care to read a long blog post without pictures and use their brains and maybe leave a comment with their opinion. It's frustrating.
Of course, I'm not the best follower either. Sometimes I don't mind reading all the posts people blog and sometimes I forget to leave a comment. Yes, I forget it. I always want to comment and then I forget about it. :/ Sorry.
Anyway, it seems to me as if people on Blogger don't want to talk anymore. They just want to see short posts with cool and funny stuff or great pictures. Nothing against photography blogs or people who post short posts with lots of pictures, but if you're just here to look at funny stuff, then please go and get a Tumblr. Tumblr is made for that. You also don't have to talk or use your brain there, either. Isn't that perfect?
Seriously, sometimes I can't stand this anymore.
It happened several times that I posted something and expected people's opinion and then I got really angry because all of the comments where comments you can put in the category "three words telling you that whatever you said is cute/cool/fun". What the heck is wrong with this world? You can't have a discussion on the internet. It's useless to try. This makes it like real life. I mean I live in a family where the most thrilling topic is the weather. I'm used to this shiz, but that's not what I expect from my followers. That's not why I'm here.
All these places, Blogger, Twitter, Tumblr, are social networks. I see the network, but where's the social?
Blogger is like talking to a wall. Tumblr is amazing, but you don't need your brain for it. It's my inspiration board, but sometimes it's really boring with only 26 followers, because nobody ever sends you a message or whatever. Twitter is still the best...as long as there's someone online.
I don't know what to do with all these things. I don't know what to do with my blog. I really don't know.
Where are my 70something followers? I can't see them.
Sometimes I think I should delete this blog and start a new blog to get rid of all these people who don't care about my blog anymore. To see the real number of people who read my blog. Because 70something is definitely not the real number.
I could also delete my blog and never return. It wouldn't even matter.
But I won't.